2021-03-10 02:42 pm
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So-a beginning.

This may become very personal over time-I have no set plan for what I'll be talking about here except that I aim to post something once a month at least.
A brief introduction of me-I'm 40, I moved to Wales from London about 18 years ago and I have a daughter. I grew up in a very Catholic home with two sisters and a brother along with our parents. My relationship with my parents was very difficult when I lived at home (it is better now) and my mother didn't agree with talking about puberty, periods or anything like that-I was lucky to have two older sisters but my teen years were very tough.
I am a single parent (thank gods, believe me) and my approach with my kid has always been to talk about the embarrassing stuff from an early age-my kid is 17 now and I think this approach is one of the reasons we're very close.
I started having periods when I was 11-aside from my eldest sister, I had no info about what was happening and it was scary. My sisters and I are within 3 years of each other and we all started when we were quite young. We're all showing signs of perimenopause now as well. For me, this started last year when my periods went from monthly to every couple of weeks, from a five day gradual bleed to a three day horror show. I've had scans and blood tests and everything seems fine so it seems as though I'm beginning to go through the 'change'
Very little info seems to be taught about it though. I think my mum started menopause when I was a teenager-she was nearly 38 when I was born and she had herself sterilised afterwards so I have no way of knowing when the perimenopause actually began for her. Simple fact is, we aren't given much info about this process-we assume it means our periods just stop happening but that isn't how it works. Aside from offering me HRT and trying me on progesterone (which gave me very bad joint pain, I have hypermobile joints so I already have a joint pain issue!), there doesn't seem to be much support or access to info about what's happening.

So this blog is a part of my journey. Hopefully. I'm terrible at keeping up with things like this. I'm currently starting a period around 2 weeks after finishing the previous one which is exhausting and painful-I want to take one of those days when menstruating to light some incense and perhaps a candle and just spend some time here, writing about how I'm feeling, maybe about what I'm learning about the physical changes or just going off on tangents about feminine wisdom, the Crone, societal expectations-possibly hormonal rants as well about work...